About Me

My name is Katherine Bown (maiden: Formosa) and on 23rd February ‘09, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. This is my story, my diary, which I hope will be support to those who are battling breast cancer or those waiting for their biposy results that are eager to find out more…

And to my friends and family, I thank you all for you continuous support and sometimes when I’m in hibernation and don’t feel like talking, this is a great way to keep you all up-to-date with my news.

For those who don't know me, I’m 33 years old, I live in Cardiff and I recently got married. I run a website, www.urbantraffic.co.uk and I also work part-time as a Communications Manager.

Saturday 28 February 2009

I feel like an Alien!

It's weird but I don't think anyone knows how I feel. I don't know anyone who's had breast cancer, except Kylie Minogue, although not personally! So I do feel very alone in the sense that I can't 'really' talk about it unless someone understands.

So, in my quest for some inside knowledge, I watched Season 6 of Sex & the City where Samantha is diagnosed with breast cancer. And this may sound bonkers but it made me feel human, even though its just a tv show, it was good to see someone else going through it.

But back in the real world, I only know friends of friends of friends who have had breast cancer, but no-one my age, they all see to be women in their 40's or older. And it's hardly possible to hang out in bars asking women my age if they know anyone who's had breast cancer and can I talk to them!

So the quest continues and my feelings...well i'm mute. What can I say?

Who will truly understand that I'm scared of something the size of a peanut?
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  1. Eelannash19 May 2009 at 11:45

    My partner had a blood cancer in 2006. I felt like an alien as his partner for so long. All through his treatment I didn't feel like I could talk to anyone. Everyone is going on with their lives, but to me, everything was cancer and survival. There were no friends I felt I could go to, sure they'd listen, but it wasn't like when I'd talk endlessly about relationships or dating or anything else because they could relate to all that, they could not relate to this. They had no idea about the struggles, the horrors and the fears and as a friend I didn't feel I could place that "burden" on them.

    I don't have advice, I just want you, and others who read this, to know that they are not alone. I feel like an alien too.

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